Today was my third first day of the school year. I had one back in September, then another a few weeks ago when I returned to teach one class, and now today when I added a second class. If all goes well, I will have yet another first day after winter break when I add my third (and for this year final) class.
This has required some adjustment on my part. Over the course of the past week or so, I've become more and more aware of what I'm dealing with. My energy level is noticeably better and can stay that way for hours, then suddenly I'm wiped out and need to lie down. My brain is acting a little wonky too. I have a touch of memory loss. Not the fun kind like in movies or soap operas where you have amnesia and don't know who you are or where you are and you get to live your life anew, perhaps even falling in love again, only this time with your true love, not that loser you were with before your accident.
No, not like that. Like, being reminded that a week ago you said you'd do something and now have no memory of ever talking about it. I've forgotten appointments and have forgotten to look at my calendar to check. I have a slight suspicion that I'm being punked at times, but I have no way of knowing for sure. We're not talking Memento, but still.
It's weird, because if I'm teaching I'll have blank moments, but because I'm standing in a classroom at a whiteboard writing something down and a bunch of kids are watching me, I have a bunch of clues as to what I'm doing and how I need to fill things in (looking at what I just wrote is a good one). But without that kind of specific context, it can be difficult.
So the only conclusion I can reach is that my mind is having the same kind of reactions that my body is, where it will be humming along (literally, I hum incessantly) and then just stop operating properly. This would probably be bad if it happened when I'm driving, but everyone on the road is always so insane at this time of year that nobody would notice.
More than anything, this reminds me of an old SNL bit. Guess I just have to see what happens next.
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