Procrastinating report cards

So here's the kind of head space I get into sometimes. I'm in the bathroom, getting ready to go out for a walk or something, and I notice there is a strange mechanical noise, a little like a fan but louder and more tonal. And I'm saying to myself, hmm, there's a weird noise in the room. And then my next thought is, "Well I hope there is."


I know, it's not really that funny, but it's an example of how my consciousness can get shaken loose just a bit when I really pay attention.  I don’t usually take the time to think all of the subsequent statements, like "Otherwise I’ll be hearing that all the time" or "Otherwise my brain is just playing tricks on me" or "Maybe there's a weird noise all the rest of the time but not now" or any of those or else things. I’m sure my subconscious does all of that, but I don’t take the time to consciously think about it.


The larger point though, is that I think we’d all be better off if we did things like that more often.
Human beings are really into classifying things. Oh, this must be this or this must be that. But of course we never know anything with 100% certainty. So wouldn't we lead more interesting lives if we entertained the possibility that when we think what we think, we also acknowledge that things aren't necessarily that concrete? Or concrete at all. I think children do that naturally and we call it pretend play. But how do we know it's any more pretend than what we're doing?  We don't, but it's easier to get through the day assuming that we know what we know.


But I would suggest that people would be less in a state of tying themselves in knots and would be happier and free-er if we weren’t so damn certain about things all the time. Thinking can be a gift, but when you start thinking about thinking, or deciding that things are certain way and feel like you know that they are that certain way, you can really get yourself in trouble very quickly. I try to avoid doing this, but I see many people in my life trapped by the way they think things are and have to be. Even though they don't really know for sure.